R. I. P. Fred.

My grandfather (mother's side) and my brother, 1992
 

I've mentioned I don't deal with pain well on here before, yes? I suppose I'm just surprised it's hit me so soon.

I just want to lash out at everyone.

Li te yon pandan ke depi mwen te apa pou Bondye.

Every day ends in wasted motion
Just crossed swords on the killing floor
To settle back is to settle without knowing
The hard edge that you're settlin' for...

'Cause there's always just one more day
And it's always gonna be that way
Little girl, you've been down here so long
I can tell by the way that you move you belong to the

Jackson Cage
Down in the Jackson Cage
And it don't matter – just what – you say
Are you tough enough to play – the game – they play
Or will you just do your time and fade away,
Down into the Jackson Cage
--Bruce Springsteen