June 11, 2007
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Finally uploaded Springsteen's Tunnel of Love to my iPod. Why I possibly waited so long is beyond me. I used to listen to that album all the time when I was younger when all I had was cassettes and had to record the CD to one. Amazing album. Now I believe I have every album on there, including bootlegs. Heh, I'm too much a fan. Seems I have more than 400 songs of him on there.
In any case, I was thinking about how I have such opposites in me. Obviously, that sentence says nothing. Lemme see: we could start, I suppose, with my humor. I've been told it can be dry and I can from time to time be witty, but the one that always sticks out the most to me is my love for shock value and crude humor. And I can be crude. Very crude. Racial, homophobic, etc. jokes don't bother me so long as you make sure you're joking. And I've done some pretty outlandish stuff. I can be utterly immature when I'm joking around. And if you compare that to what I believe in: I believe in abstinance, I'm pro-gay, certainly not a racist, don't do drugs or drink, and I don't believe in valuing human beauty. And I like to think I'm fairly mature. Somewhat strikingly different. Or then you could take something as simple as my choice in music. I love rap and metal. And generally it's not more mainstream stuff - it's black, gothic, and death metal as well as metalcore (Atreyu!) along with hardcore and shock rap. Plus some of my shock rap can be rather over the top and "out there" to get a point across. And then my demeaner? I'm rather calm, hate violence and confrontation, and always worrying about how I treat others. And then, to counter those rather extreme music choices, I love classical music as well. While I can be rather random and confident around friends and people I'm comfortable with, otherwise I'm horrendously shy, quiet, and self-concious. And yes, Laila has said I can lack tact (my humor getting me in trouble again), yet I can also be rather sweet (or so I at least like to think. Heh, I suppose you could say yes or no to that Laura). There's a vast difference in what I believe and what I don't intend to be taken literally, I suppose. And then my interests can also be rather conflicting as well, but I suppose that's another story. Anyway, was just a thought.
Comments (1)
oh, you ARE very sweet.
You make me feel warm and fuzzy inside.
and with the whole opposite things, me too. In different respects. I'd like to think that a lot of people have contrasting bits of their personality. It makes people interesting, and differentiates them from society's boring 'norm'.
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