Quotes

  • One of the worst feeling, I think, is just not knowing. I have a necessity to know, I think. It means solution, progress. It means understanding what's going on. Without it - I'm at a loss.

    I think one of the Canadians in the South Park movie was actually voiced by Wakko from the Animaniacs; it sounds like that (which makes all the more weird when he sings, "Shut your fucking face, Uncle Fucker/You're the one that fucked your uncle, Uncle Fucker," though you've got to admire his emotion).

    Yeah, this post isn't really going anywhere. I have to wonder still why I've kept a xanga this long. Since Freshman year, I think. Thanks again, Nox, if you still even read this.

  • What do you do when you don't have a clue anymore? Just keep holding on.

    Met this girl today. I think her name was Amy (I'm terrible with names...).

    Every moment when something goes right, we tell ourselves things do work out, so we ought to keep trying, no matter how dismal. How about the simple fact we don't have much of any other choice.

    Midterms tomorrow.

     

    Whoever said illegal was the easy way out
    Couldn't understand the mechanics and the workings of the underworld
    Granted:
    9-to-5 is how you survive
    I ain't tryin' to survive
    I'm trying to live it to the limit and love it a lot...
    -Jay-Z

     

    jess thanked me today for all the times I helped her, etc. Hate to sound pretentious but I'm not suprised. Was nice to hear, though.

     

    All the years, we were real close
    Now I see his fears through her tears
    No, she wishing we were still close
    Don't cry; it is to be
    In time, I take away your miseries and make it mine...
    -Jay-Z

  • Madonna's new tour is called the Sticky and Sweet Tour.

    I swear, if I could catch and read into liturature, ideas, and symbolism like I do sexual innuendos, I'd be a fantastic reader.

     

    Not a bad weekend. Went to a party Friday and was a total wallflower, though that was expected. Went to Six Flags on Sat. and went on two roller coasters (though one was a moderate for kids, and mostly is significant because I got K. B. to ride a coaster. The one before it my brother probably would have killed to have been the one to get me on). I got no hw done, despite my plans. Today was hw. Missed breakfast and lunch. Ended up being one of the eucharistic ministers because, it seemed, the scheduled ones didn't show. Was unexpected but cool to help out at church. Work after that. Not too bad. And hw again.

    I am going to do an album review of Reasonable Doubt. Just taking a while to get to. But I will.

     

     

    The sea is calm to-night.
    The tide is full, the moon lies fair
    Upon the straits; on the French coast the light
    Gleams and is gone; the cliffs of England stand;
    Glimmering and vast, out in the tranquil bay.
    Come to the window, sweet is the night-air!
    Only, from the long line of spray
    Where the sea meets the moon-blanched land,
    Listen! you hear the grating roar
    Of pebbles which the waves draw back, and fling,
    At their return, up the high strand,
    Begin, and cease, and then again begin,
    With tremulous cadence slow, and bring
    The eternal note of sadness in.

    Sophocles long ago
    Heard it on the A gaean, and it brought
    Into his mind the turbid ebb and flow
    Of human misery; we
    Find also in the sound a thought,
    Hearing it by this distant northern sea.

    The Sea of Faith
    Was once, too, at the full, and round earth's shore
    Lay like the folds of a bright girdle furled.
    But now I only hear
    Its melancholy, long, withdrawing roar,
    Retreating, to the breath
    Of the night-wind, down the vast edges drear
    And naked shingles of the world.

    Ah, love, let us be true
    To one another! for the world, which seems
    To lie before us like a land of dreams,
    So various, so beautiful, so new,
    Hath really neither joy, nor love, nor light,
    Nor certitude, nor peace, nor help for pain;
    And we are here as on a darkling plain
    Swept with confused alarms of struggle and flight,
    Where ignorant armies clash by night.
    -Matthew Arnold

  • Hmm, I think I was in 8th grade. I was doing what I did in 8th grade - lost in my own world lest someone else intruded. So suddenly my name is mentioned. I don't think I caught the entire sentence; if I remember correctly, I just caught (jokingly said), "I swear, I have no friends. Except for Jon. You're my friend, right Jon?" I don't even remember us having any particular previous interactions before this. We must have, right? Perhaps it was, in that way that early school (or maybe my particular middle school) framed social interactions, simply that familiarity amongst your peers; we had been in the same hall for 3 years, after all. Why shouldn't we consider each other friends? And while probably nothing to her, she had included me for that brief moment (during a time that I often felt excluded by most of my classmates). We didn't talk a great deal more (really, a shame), though the proximity of our seating arrangements (she sat behind me) helped us not drift back into silence. Having recognized that she recognized me, I made an effort to talk to her more; I recall, after having given a speech (I hated public speaking), I immediately deferred to her - once I made it back to my seat - as to whether I did well. I suppose the real significance of those events is that, though I didn't realize it then, she was one of the first people I ever started to lean on, friend-wise: admitting that I was worried about how I did, just bothering to speak first to her (I was always on edge, in those days, that the person would respond as if talking to me was a burden; some did) - these are weaknesses that can be exploited, even by simply just rejecting the sincerity of them. I can still remember her clearly - even the name. Andrea. As much as we constantly say it, we never seem to remember it: the littlest things can mean a lot. Even if nothing special, even to the person receiving it - it can still be relevant. Humans are amazing - when they're not being assholes.

    I've done my best to live the right way
    I get up every morning and go to work each day
    But your eyes go blind and your blood runs cold
    Sometimes I feel so weak I just wanna explode
    Explode, and tear this whole town apart
    Take a knife and cut this pain from my heart
    Find somebody iching for something to start

    Well, the dogs on Main Street howl, 'cause they understand
    If I could reach one moment into my hand
    Mister, I ain't a boy - no, I'm a man
    And I believe in the promised land

    -Bruce Springsteen

    Lord, if there is an artist that can reach me and state me better than Bruce Springsteen, find him/her.

    The crazed pacing
    With racing placement
    Of a pulsing amazement
    That this time may hold attainment
    Is a rare occation
    When you've forsaken placing
    Yourself in the line of venture
    Yet the stubs are entered
    You deftly laugh despite the uncertain pressure
    Yet know indefintely that
    Any quip she mentions
    Will attain such frank attention
    Your wish for a current pention
    Is suspended - ended?
    Well, at least for this present session
    Pretention suspended
    Too nervous anyway for the mask to question
    Every aspect of this willed convention
    Still concerned that initial intentions
    Will change in less time than the last impression

    I want to say my best lyricism to date, but who knows. We'll say I had a muse.

    This is for the ones that have a notion
    A notion deep inside
    That it ain't no sin to be glad you're alive
    I wanna find one face that ain't looking through me
    I wanna find one place, I wanna spit in the face of these

    Badlands...

    -Bruce Springsteen