Because I can't keep quiet in the face of stupidity...heh, no matter who listens....

First, why is it we continually seem to look towards Beauty Pageant contestants for leaders? Ignoring my own professed beliefs...I think the past couple have been compelling reasons not to bother!

That could go into many other beautiful arguments and theories but for another day.

The other thing that pisses me off - two idiots (I do not use this lightly) on Revelife decided to make the claim that Christians were a "hated" group. News flash - just because someone doesn't agree with you, doesn't make you a hated group.

Ever been to a white supremacy website (check out Jew Watch if you're direly interested)? Their entire argument is that they believe in the freedom of others - but God forbid those minority groups work in the system and happen to come out on top of the majority. "The majority people in each nation deserve better." Essentially - you can live, so long as I get representation and what I say is considered right - only me.

Hmm, so that's what makes a hate group. It couldn't possibly be that people find the ideas utter ludicrous.

Forgive, this might totally be out of place for me here, but I'm bisexual and half Haitian. I honestly don't know how I got the idea in my head, but somehow I thought I had a better idea of hate and discrimination.

Let's look at the hate crime statistics recorded by the FBI for 2007.

52.2 percent were motivated by a racial bias
16.4 percent resulted from religious bias
16.2 percent resulted from sexual-orientational bias

Well, seems the religious beat us. Of course, it's not exactly mandatory for local law enforcement agencies to record hate crime information (http://www.boxturtlebulletin.com/Articles/000,004.htm). You don't possibly think that some states could give a damn less about what queers get killed, do you? Without hate crime punishments within a good deal of states still? No, not at all possible.

Well, now, let's break this down, shall we? According to the FBI, of those committed in anti-religious bias,

68.4 percent were anti-Jewish
9.5 percent were anti-other religion
9.0 percent were anti-Islamic
4.4 percent were anti-Catholic
4.3 percent were anti-multiple religions, group
4.0 percent were anti-Protestant
0.4 percent were anti-Atheism/Agnosticism/etc

Hmm...so, combining the Catholics and Protestants...that's 8.4% anti-Christian hate crimes. (you know, versus the 68.4% anti-Jewish ones).

Now, breaking down the sexual-orientation in a similar fashion,

59.2 percent were classified as anti-male homosexual bias
24.8 percent were reported as anti-homosexual bias
12.6 percent were prompted by an anti-female homosexual bias
1.8 percent were the result of an anti-heterosexual bias
1.6 percent were classified as anti-bisexual bias

So, even will our less than accurate numbers (for those who have gone unreported who were gay, etc.), considering there was a .2 percent difference between the religious and sexual-orientation people victim to hate crimes, there was about 89.8% more people victim of a hate crime with anti-sexuality bias than those victim of hate crimes with a anti-Christian bias.

Wait, wait - Christians are a hate group?

Heh, forgive me if I'm a little confused - who has the right to marry at the moment? Better yet - who has legal benefits given by the State that I don't have?? Want to talk about housing situations? How they're fucked as a result of anti-racial discrimination that we're still feeling the affects for? Or how about that if my name were Jamal, I would have 50% less of a chance of being hired (http://books.google.com/books?id=9I7ExPk-920C&pg=PA226&lpg=PA226&dq=Black+names+job+employment&source=bl&ots=r6Wsam1HvT&sig=eNcRkSPD3dnOAAA6kAP2jhQuvgE&hl=en&ei=L2T3SfeAD6WsNaOLoLYP&sa=X&oi=book_result&ct=result&resnum=8#PPA226,M1) than if I submitted an application with my actual name?

Hate group? Are you kidding me? I'm floored! No, I'm insulted. I'm flabbergasted. In this country, you have the audacity to complain that just because your ideas are opposed, you feel you're hated? Perhaps you should recheck your ideas.

I believe in free speech; I believe in it because only in open dialogue can we further in progress. This is the perpetuation of idiocy.

 

 

 

 

 

In other news, gay Iraqis are dying by torture: http://www.boxturtlebulletin.com/2009/04/26/10950#comments
In Uganda, people still push for jail-time for life for being found to be gay: http://www.boxturtlebulletin.com/2009/04/24/10921#comments
Antisemitism is on the rise again in Europe: http://www.haaretz.com/hasen/spages/883342.html
I'm still able to find pictures like this online:
 (http://images.google.com/imgres?imgurl=http://patdollard.com/wp-content/uploads/nigger-make-up.jpg&imgrefurl=http://patdollard.com/2008/07/theyll-call-me-a-nigger-mccain-and-hussein-have-begun-nastiest-presidential-battle-in-decades/&usg=__0olbGA313rc2GpCXQ49eW0QRcU0=&h=290&w=400&sz=29&hl=en&start=2&um=1&tbnid=tcQhMM3UuJfgtM:&tbnh=90&tbnw=124&prev=/images%3Fq%3Dnigger%26hl%3Den%26sa%3DN%26um%3D1)
Many still don't understand sexism when faced with it.
And for way too "comfortable" an amount of people, I'm still a nigger - and I'm still a faggot

What's that other negative word people call me for being Christian? Oh, right - there is none

As I was heading to a class today, I happened to pass another church on campus that I don't normally frequent. I happened to notice that there was a sign that said "Open for Prayer" on the door. This meant the church was unlocked. This meant I could enter. Churches rarely do this anymore. After 5 seconds of deliberation, I gave in and entered. There's something about churches in general that are so...luring and comforting. I can't rightly say it. Ha, I'm such a Christian...

What brought you to Xanga? What made you stay?

I was brought to xanga due to Nox, back when I used to frequent the Church USA chat rooms. I didn't know what the Hell it was, at first (my first few posts are beyond comical, in my opinion). Upon figuring it out, I fell in love with the environment  Honestly, Xanga created the idea of a ton of teenage journals in anonymity for open navigation on the inter-web. There still remains no environment like it, with the layouts it provided. It was, really, personality connection for those driven into isolation. As I've waxed before, that's since changed, but xanga is still very much that way for me.

As for staying, I'm not entirely sure. I've grown exceedingly tired with Xanga. While I love the initial concept, and the Featured Weblogs and (to an extent) the Ish sites were quite good, some of the junk they've added is downright pointless. Upload pictures...on a journal site? No one's about to make albums. And you could just see the picture with the original post; that way it makes sense. Blogrings have never made sense to me. It's like MySpace - I can alter what it says (and, true, MySpace has layouts) but that's it. No interaction whatsoever.

Plus, I really want to know what dumbass decided to fuck up the Look & Feel option. True, the new way to make layouts is quite user-friendly  But, surely they knew that half of the fun of layouts was screwing around with the HTML code...right? I mean, really? You didn't realize that?? Okay, so you've ended up limiting us severely instead. And they honestly don't know how to pick Featured Weblogs for shit. Some of the most stupid crap is posted instead. Take a look through the suggested ones, then see which ones they decided to feature. I'm also growing exceeding sure Xanga has a anti-gay bias. Revelife was the first Ish site, wasn't it (or one of)? Plus, that's the only one they have? People have gathered around having an atheist ish site in the ideas section, but they haven't implemented that yet. Coincidence?

I mean, I know the hypocrisy of typing out complaints about a site I'm currently using. But beyond it's core function (an online journal/blog), Xanga team fails on many accounts.

Still, I'm here. Fact is, my entire journal since (I think) Freshman year of high school is here. My thoughts and ideas. Exactly the point of a Xanga - the person scribbled and inscribed in the layout and words and pictures they leave behind. I have a True Badge, too. But I suppose I have it for the old Xanga I used to know, before the celebrities and the ignorance the internet is so good at exposing in others was shown so blatantly. I couldn't part from this profile. It means too much.

I just answered this Featured Question; you can answer it too!

Just saw a xanga article titled Why Do People Think Christian Rap is Wack? Probably because you've removed the never-staying-within-societal-expectations and groundbreaking aspects of it, not to mention ripped it utterly from its roots and probably reject those roots as well. I wouldn't be surprised to find the quality sub-par as well. Harsh, but if you don't recognize what Rakim, Jay-Z, Nas, or Biggie did to advance the way we bother to look at lyricism or acknowledge the groundbreaking affect Dr. Dre's The Chronic had on producing, I'm not going to take you seriously as an emcee (and if you cannot tell me the origins of that word and how it pertains to my current usage...yeah, you get the point).

I was going to say something for this post, but I've forgotten. I should be doing hw anyway.

Seems like I've been able to just let lyrics speak for myself these days...

Well, papa, go to bed now -
It's getting late
Nothing we can say is gonna change anything now

I'll be leaving in the morning
From St. Mary's Gate
We wouldn't change this thing even if we could somehow

There's a darkness of this house that's got the best of us
There's a darkness in this town that's got us too

But they can't touch me now
And you can't touch me now
They ain't gonna do to me what I watched them do to you

So, say goodbye; it's Independence Day
It's Independence Day all down the line...

Just say goodbye; it's Independence Day
It's Independence Day this time...

Now, I don't know what it always was with us
We chose the words
And, yeah, we drew the lines

There was just no way this house
Could hold the two of us
I guess that we were just too much of the same kind

Well, say goodbye; it's Independence Day
It's Independence Day
All boys must run away

So say goodbye; it's Independence Day
All men must make their way
Come Independence Day

[Sax solo]

Now the rooms are all empty down at Frankie's joint
And the highway, she's deserted
Clear down to Breaker's Point

There's a lot of people leaving town now
Leavin' their friends and their homes
At night they walk that dark and dusty highway all alone

So papa, go to bed now
It's getting late
Nothing we can say can change anything now

'Cause there's just different people comin' down here now
And they see things in different ways
And soon everything you've known will just be swept away

So say goodbye; it's Independence Day
Papa, now, I know the things you wanted
That you could not say

But won't you just say goodbye?
It's Independence Day
I swear I never meant to take those things away...
-Bruce Springsteen

It was a good day, up to the end where all visible lines smeared. "Why can't life be easy?" Free will and luck. Yet even I could say that's a pretty crap-ass answer. There is an afterlife, there is an afterlife, there is an afterlife.... (that's my brand of humor, btw)

I had a ton I wanted to say in this entry and now I can't think of anything. Oh well.

You know, I honestly think Tommy is very smart and incredibly insightful. But he makes so many rash and not smart decisions way too often. Gotta love the kid anyway, though.

I was talking to this pretty cool today when I went to see my friend. We were discussing parenting (which was actually intensely amusing) and she mentioned that she wouldn't be ready because it means living for someone else and not just yourself, something she was not at all ready for yet. And I responded, "Well, yes, but aren't you already living for others?" And I already knew the distinction before saying it, though. It's your viewpoint on life - are you thinking about how you ought to be justly treated or are you thinking how you should justly act towards each person? I wouldn't be ready for a kid at this point - it's physically impossible to keep after the child when I'm struggling to take after myself at the moment.

I attended Mass today because Father Caster will be gone tomorrow. And the times for St. Patrick's are far too early for me to even hope to wake up on time Sunday. It was really nice. I was watching the alter servers, because (having done it for God knows how many years and having had to often be the one to instruct the younger kids on how to do it (more than often my brother and sister)) I like to see how they do, whether they seem to be enjoying the job. It's honestly one of the only things I can really say my mother did right, making me join alter serving. I love it. It has something to do with the Catholic church as well but when you're walking down that aisle it just becomes you're in control. One of those few places where, yeah, there're probably a ton of eyes on me and yet I'm in my own place, just feeling in myself, "I'm home."

You're lucky, Tommy. You know what you want, clearly - even know how to go about it, relatively.

Dark weekends in the sun
     out on Chelsea rode
Descending the stairs
     Ah, Frankie, my world
Check your makeup in the mirror
     C'mon, babe, let's go
We'll dance 'round this dirty town
     'til the night is all done

Let all the finer things sleep alone tonight
Let all the minor kings lose their thrones tonight
Don't worry 'bout us baby,
     we'll be alright...
-Bruce Springsteen

I'll have to show you Gurnee sometimes. Gages Lake, the Woodland schools, Grays Lake - Hell, even Warren Township. Oh, and library. Geez, that library could be a bibliophile's dream (alright, maybe it's just satisfactory, but I'm nostalgic at the moment...).

I don't exactly know why but it was always like even the most frequented of places had so much nature maintained. There're just fields next to that library. And the park, next to the youth center, was always fun to just bike ride out to. There's trails and trails of confusing and unknown neighborhoods to ride through. Occasionally you'd get to just a pile of dirt to ride all over from some construction. Or you'd just get to a nature preserve, tranquil and quiet. And the Gurnee mall, of course. Not nearly as utterly satisfying to trail around all day with a friend in as the mall in Evanston (I've gotta take you there someday as well. Northwestern, the park, just the neighborhoods...).

I dunno. There was something about Gurnee that was just capturing. A peace that only nature could give you yet is unending in its empty parking lots and empty buildings. Just gotta see it.

I was debating writing this, because in my own circles it needn't be said. I hate the culture war with slight exceptions, I do. However, I've been sticking my head in the news for far too long a period today and it got under my skin.

As anyone who knows me would admit, socially, I'm quite liberal. You can persuade me more so economically but you'll find little luck on the social spectrum.

So, recently, I heard someone complaining about how we view the world today. "People's morals today are just trashed". Yeah, and they totally weren't many years ago...I'm sure the Dark Ages was tons more advanced than us today morally. Open up Shakespeare, please - utter genius but the greatest source of tons of sex. And guess what - your Freshman children are reading up on sexual innuendos and sex at 18 (or so) right now (Romeo and Juliet). Now go panic and proclaim the end of the world, please.

As one person (I'm certain it was on Revelife - continual source of intelligence coming from there) put it, "Who would have thought that today's people would decide right and wrong on what they feel?" (emphasis mine, with the possible exception of the italicism; I can't properly remember). And then I read a blog today noting how the God-awful "liberal" media makes everything seem fine if we just plaster "love" and "feelings" over it. Yes, they were tying the connection of a female teacher molesting a 13 year old male student of theirs to homosexuality (can I hear some respectable groans from the wonderful gay and bi people in the crowd??).

You know, funny thing about that - socially liberal people (note I specifically mention socially liberal; a previous post of mine, for those who have read my xanga for a while now, helps to understand why that distinction is important) actually really like facts.

This would happen to be why most liberals (on average) happen to be atheist in comparison to social conservatives (which, of course, makes my own piety a tad bit laughable). This would also happen to be why the higher the education you have, the more liberal you're likely to be.

So, when we happen to say that homosexuals aren't boogie men we've created to try to tear down society...that's because the American Psychological Association actually has stated that homosexuality is rather natural and not chosen (some of your best friends are gay, you know).

"...but rather protesting the open nature and societal acceptance of homosexuality, an orientation which many scientists view to be an a-posteriori choice." Oh, are you kidding me??
"No, human beings cannot choose to be either gay or straight. For most people, sexual orientation emerges in early adolescence without any prior sexual experience. Although we can choose whether to act on our feelings, psychologists do not consider sexual orientation to be a conscious choice that can be voluntarily changed." (http://www.apahelpcenter.org/articles/article.php?id=31).

We haven't decided this simply because we felt it. It came upon our radar because we felt it. Then we assessed it. And we found it to not destroy entire societies (believe me, at the rate they're going, by now I have the ability to set several forests on fire, start earthquakes, and bring about the end of the world. And to think I was worried with something like clinical depression). The whole reason we're pushing words like justice, equality, and hate is because we've already passed the right/wrong portion of the class. Please, could you keep up?

You'll have to forgive us, but we just find these following tenets common sense:
-How someone dresses shouldn't make that big of a deal - the content of their character ought to.
-While we have no issues with, really, any religion, we do have an issue when you want to make that one religion the law of the land. Sorry to break it to you, but you do live in a nation with many others. They deserve their rights as well.
-Hey, we like autonomy. If they aren't harming anyone - leave 'em alone.
-Guess what - we aren't perfect yet so to assume things should remain stagnant isn't the best thought process. If you want to take a literal description of moral conservatism, to conserve means to keep as was. That means a social conservative today would have been a major liberal in the eyes of the past. Wait...

Now, don't get me wrong - I have rather conservative tendencies (I like to think they subside my homosexual ones...okay, even I'll admit that was a bad one). I believe in logic and reason. Following this, either extreme (liberal or conservative) could not be correct. However, social liberalism happens to be more so.

One, I'm a Christian (which, when all is taken into account, is a really funny paradox). I'm a strong advocate of abstinence (as my concurrent rants and long streaming opinions continue to point to a somewhat extreme opinion on sex in general). I obviously believe in more conservative dress (my own clothing style is so mundane it's pitiful). I am pro-life (that's the simple answer; the actual one is a bit more complex). I'm definitely anti-gun control. I disagree with "porn booths" and the selling of porn at gas stations, though I would support continuing those running since I believe in that right (though I am willing to hear the argument that porn booths degrade the community, not to mention encourage more public sex. However, you have no real argument about the gas porn, honestly).

The thing that separates me and makes me liberal is that with all of those (with the exception of abortion and gun control) is that I don't shove my personal opinions down someone else's throat because it's not going to hurt me. I don't care how much porn the next person buys (though I do pity them for going through that process if they have an internet connection at home - honestly, that's just stupid). I don't care how much like a jack rabbit the next person humps; I knew someone was having premarital sex in my own dorm - the girl seemed to be having a blast, from the sounds of it. But I'm not dead from the fact, yet.

The fact is, I originally wanted to do this without attacking and just pointing out the facts of it. But, honestly, mandating prayer in school is an attack to me and, more importantly, an attack on the child who could use that school time to be learning. Maybe it's really conservative of me, but I think the family should be the source of that child's religious enstillment, not the government and certainly not the school. I find it an attack when I'm told I can't have the basic legal rights to marry and keep a job. I find it an attack when, for a country founded on the idea of free speech and allowing other ideas (no matter what we may think of them), those ideas must be restricted by my government.

So, in short, I'm a social liberal not because I'm blazing with feeling I just cannot contain but because it doesn't insult my better intelligence.

Also, if anything confirms the idiocy in my mind, its the phrase I found on this page: http://www.facebook.com/group.php?sid=83448ae0e58f7f86d366251132fabc3c&gid=2230733281
"MAKE WAR NOT LOVE assholes"

Damn, I just feel so guilt ridden and dirty now....

Or my new favorite I just found: "They [social conservatives] do not subscribe to abstract notions such as 'reason' or 'progress'..."

Axis_of_Doom, could you comment on that one, just for me?

So, reverting back to the original child molesting post that drove me to this entry, the author writes, "Haven't we learned from the Beatles 'all we need is love, love is all we need'?" and then proceeds to tear down all the "liberal" ways that promoting love has diluted the topic (oh, the Beatles, those scandolous liberal bastards!). Yet somehow I have a feeling - sorry, I interpret that Lennon actually meant love when he coined the phrase. And that can lead to many things (compassion, patience, trying to understand, etc.). But I'm not going to try to explain or justify it further. If you have a brain, you ought to be able to figure it out.

Ehh, I hate the culture war. If you want to further discuss or explore things I've written here or simply clarify, comment or private message me. I would have no doubt I didn't explain something I wrote here properly.

Well, this is about half a year after it happened to me, but "on time" was never something that ran in my family, it seems.

In any case, towards the beginning of the year, there was held what was called a Screw Dance (why, I dunno) for all the Freshies. The entries all got together and people were randomly hooked up (you got to specify certain things, however, you'd want for a partner). Funnily enough, I was told it was casual dress and I had work beforehand. And, of course, some people had to dress up (ties and button-ups) and, of course, they had to be some of the first people I see. So I do a slight panic episode before the dance. You probably would've laughed.

In the end, I decide to just forget about it and I probably won't see my partner for the night soon anyway, if things when utterly horribly.

I forget the name of my date (I forget everyone's name, first time I meet them (and subsequent times afterwards...)). I do remember she was not from in-country because she kept refering to American customs the entire night. One of her complaints was our choice in dance music (they played mostly rap the entire night. There was a moment where they played Journey's Don't Stop Believing(let me tell you, watching everyone in that room kind of just stop and every single person in there sing the lyrics was one of the coolest things ever) but she didn't recognize the song).

So, at one point, she notices the crucifix around my neck and remarks, "Are you Christian?" Then she sort of laughs and asks, "Are you a hard believing Christian or are you a 'Christian' - American Christian." Heh, I'm probably making (and will make) this girl sound so awful. She was very nice. Quite joking.

However, the sentence did strike me. Granted, I know what she meant. We have many who are willing to claim being a Christian while not following any of the tenements and picking and choosing well away.

However, countering that (and more to my annoyance), we have plenty of zealous, religious lunatics who do more than their fair share to twist not only logic but sanity and reason to a point that living loses all sense. But that's a divergence for another day...

There are many things about the American people which piss me off to no extent. Which all the more angers me because I believe in and love America.  For all out faults, there is plenty when we got right.

Yet, particularly in religion, we've got some screwed up habits (and people). To be honest, if it weren't for my crucifix, I don't think some would realize any religious dinomination about me - which is what I would want. Religion, in my mind, ought to be (for the most part) a very private thing. While countrary to "mainstream" Christianity, my actions ought to speak for my religion. But I see its function far differently from that of others.

In any case, I hope my actions in the end say more of me than anything else. There's a reason I put a good deal of intent into them.

I just saw "How to Combat Spiritual Dryness" on Revelife and immediately took it as a sexual innuendo. Wow. I thank God people actually know me well, because there'd be the worse opinions of me otherwise.

Well, let's see. Hw to do. No surprise there. Good break. Saw family, good friends, and got a haircut (despite the extended family and father's protests).

Ever had someone you respect totally lose that respect in your eyes? And I don't mean, they were just your better-than-average-people person. I mean, this is someone who literally affected who you've become, someone you were incredibly close to. Okay, so maybe not all respect. But it's like you suddenly look at them and don't even know who they are anymore. They seem far less intelligent than they were and all those qualities gone. Ay.

Well, plenty on the plate of course. Worrying about the pregnancy included. Seems I will have to consult the mother on that one. Knowing her, she'll think I'm interested in medicine again and become estatic. Never.

Because it's a hamster and I'm rodent obsessed: watch it - it's cute. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tRzTfgds0UI&eurl=http://www.xanga.com/ChrisRusso/683718262/the-evolution-of-the-vampire.html?ref=FPP

Well, it's been roughly 5 months that I've been single now. My younger self would never believe it possible, but I don't think I've done that since before Freshman year. Actually, I think the most time would probably be 3 months, generally (quite often), 2. And I didn't even start the interest for more than half the girls I've dated. I'll never understand why anyone would meet me and suddenly take interest in me. Yet that's happened...and yes, they generally end out bad (though who am I kidding, nearly all of my relationships end out bad).

So, to remember this depressing dry spell (honestly, when I try not to date, someone comes along; when I could care less, no one sticks out (or stays in contact with me long enough!)) - I'm gonna do a survey. I have never realized how hard these are to find without stealing from a friend. For once, a search engine failed me.

Quick note before, though - Dr. Rick Carter does have an emoticon - D. See the mustache?? This is officially the only one I will ever use.

::FIRST, A LITTLE ABOUT YOURSELF::
Name - PBJ

Gender - gender's perfomative, but socially accepted as male

Age - 18

Birthday - Nov. 22nd

Sign - no clue

Sexual orientation - bisexual

Height - 5'6"

Weight - 156, last I checked. probably has went up since then

Body Type - Umm?

Ethnic Background - Haitian, German, French, Spanish, Scottish, English, Polish
Languages you speak - English, bit of spanish (though I can read it far better than I can write or speak it). My own languages are still taking some time to learn

Religious persuasion - what is that even? Um, Catholic, if I'm guessing right the question

Relationship Status - single, hence why I'm filling you out

If single, are you looking? Or do you not care? What's the dealio? - it's complicated

::OPPOSITE SEX PHYSICAL PREFERENCES:: - you ask orientation, then limit this to the opp. gender??
Hair color - no preference

Hair Style - actually wouldn't care. just about anything has looked fine (then again, I'm not exactly picky). though pigtails have always reminded me of porn; and I've just shattered the hearts of many little children. sorry

Eye Color - doesn't matter. red eyes are cool, though. of course, that also means you have to be albino, but it's a perk, if you ask me

Skin Tone - don't care

Ethnic Background - could care less

Height - doesn't really matter; I've dated girls taller than me, though it seems the shorter one's are always the ones to pursue (with the exception of curly)

Weight - just how shallow do you think I am?

Body Type - beauty is a false face

Fashion Style - generally plain. I'm dreadfully boring, I know, but I think the most attractive outfit is a hoodie and jeans. while I've never dated anyone who needed to constantly wear dresses or anything, wild out there styles are fine as well. it's a good reflection of the personality

Subculture (if you had to choose) - goth, hands down. gothic chicks rule

Do any of these preferences usually apply? not really. they're all very surface level. and not every girl out there is gothic, so that ruins that

::WHAT YOU LOOK FOR PHYSICALLY IN THE OPPOSITE SEX::
Favorite body part to touch? - at the point of a relationship before marriage, hand or back (when holding the individual). I don't have wondering hands, the other does generally (*cough*Emma*cough*)

Favorite body part to look at? - BOOBS. definitely. in fact, if I'm talking to you and you're a girl, I'm probably not even paying attention; just staring at the twins (that was sarcasm, if you couldn't catch it)

Any physical characteristics you find most attractive? - I have this odd thing with hands. and a smile can be a killer. But the hand thing is still superficial and a smile lies a little more on personality.

Any physical characteristics you find unattractive? - not really. people are wonderful, all in all

Are there any accents you like? Dislike? - no, I wouldn't say so, though I'd most prefer a Chicago accent. I like ours the best, I found, when once comparing

Do you like it when they wear nail polish? - no

Do you like it when they wear make up of any kind? - definitely not. people look best naturally; make up does nothing, if you ask me

How do you like them to carry themselves? - however they damn well please

Any mannerism you find attractive or unattractive? - non that I can think of at the moment

::NON-PHYSICAL PREFERENCES:: - finally!
Personality traits you find attractive - gotta have a sense of humor. outgoing can be good, sometimes, but so can being shy and quiet. I confess I'm first pulled to shy people. is intelligence a personality trait? it does influence how someone is a lot. that's deathly important. gotta be smart (as I massacre this with awful grammar). attentive. I like attention - I admit.

Personality traits you find unattractive - lying, rude, back-stabber, hypocritical, ignorant, stubborn, high matenance, uncompromising, ignores, avoids, self-righteous, pretentious, uncaring, vain, self-centered

How important are morals to you? - quite, though that can boil down to care about others. you hurt someone (and don't care), forget me giving you the time of day

Do political views affect how you see them? - not really, considering more than half the girls I've dated were conservative (I'm a liberal bisexual - why were they interested again? Okay, technically Lindsay didn't know beforehand...). your views, in general, will affect me, but unless you're a psycho variety from either the liberal (you know, advocate for repeal of age consent laws or some shit like that) or conservative (think you're a prophet, want to make gays second class citizens, want to conserve old laws like seperate but equal, shit like that) side, we ought to be fine. Honestly, an intelligent and well-leveled conservative will disagree with me most on economic issues - and if we can't talk civilly about that, we may need to worry about our relationship moreso than our politics. Politics is mostly dumb culture war and that's all people know of it - there's really no actual reason to fight

Do you like it or dislike it when they curse frequently? - cursing reminds me that you can still think and don't allow society's views affect your judgement in life. while I will need you to realize saying, "Fuck," around a five-year-old is unacceptable, words are words and should be treated as such

Do they have to share your religious views to be compatible with you? - not at all, though every single one so far has, oddly enough (or relatively enough, at least). Though I might find some qualm if you're a Calvinist. just maybe

[This -or- That]
Good girl/boy -or- Bad girl/boy? - can I pick moderate?

Rocker -or- Hip Hopper? - I'd love someone who's into hip hop, just because I find so little, but I love rock with a passion as well, so that's fine. however, if they're into rock, they better be cool with metal. the only metal I can excuse would be death metal (just because you can't understand a word of it anyway and it's way to sporadic)

Dog person -or- Cat person? - either is cool. I love both

Liberal -or- Conservative? - preferably liberal, but economically conservative is fine as well. libertarians rock

Disciplined -or- Free spirited? - mix of both. there's a time for everything

Safe -or- Dangerous? - I value my life (heh, well, usually...)

Completely laid back and calm -or- Hyper and flamboyant? - oy. I do have a history of hyper ex's. though I suppose I'd need both. I opperate in extremes, which means either insanely out there (and taking nothing I say seriously) to quite serious, sober, and melancholy. eh, 'tis me

Virgin -or- Experienced? - I really wouldn't care how many they've had sex with in the past, but they'd have to understand I plan on staying a virgin until marriage. however, if they are quite experienced, getting tested may be required

Rational -or- Emotional? - rational, please

Very shy -or- Very outgoing? - answered above

Introverted -or- Extroverted? - introverted in that they ought to be reflective. people are the most complex of things - know yourself. extroverted in that I hate being shut out. keep in connection with me, let me in. I don't want to feel like I'm up against this wall peering through a hole

A creature of habit -or- Unpredictable? - probably habit. it would depend, I suppose.

A hopless romantic -or- A horndog? - what the Hell's a horndog? romantic, please. otherwise it'll be weird when I'm rediculous with the gifts and whatnot... D

Simple and boring -or- Complicated yet intriguing? - isn't that phrased a bit biasedly? complicated. I need someone complex

Innocent and naive -or- Wise and knowledgable? - they ought to be knowledgable in what they know. Know lots and tons. Knowledge has never hurt anyone - only the lack of it has. however, they should probably be innocent and naïve in what they've done in their life

Hot -or- Cute? - cute. based more on personality

Ugly and totally compatible -or- Gorgeous and completely obnoxious? - Can I get an Ugly for a Success Relationship?

Proper and polite -or- Rough around the edges? - depends. Fighting Sorina over the cheesecake and stuffing our faces was total fun and definitely a turn on on her part, even though it was totally not etiquette. however, you've gotta be polite to people and give them curtiosy.

Intense and passionate -or- Sweet and reserved? - um, geez, gotta be passionate somewhere, I guess. the intense though is a little frightening, while the sweet definitely catches the eye. Sweet and passionate?

Outspoken and highly opinionated -or- Happy-go-lucky pacifist? - I guess the first one

Smooth and sexy -or- Adorable and awkward? - adorable and awkward. awkward girls are so cute, plus they make you feel more comfortable about being yourself around them. and it's different because usually people say be normal, you'll fit in, etc. So it's like defying the status quo by being yourself

::YOUR VIEWS ON DATING/RELATIONSHIPS::
What is dating by your defintion? - a mutual agreement of entering a relationship higher than friendship by two (or I guess more, for those "breaking boundaries" types) people

What is a relationship by your defintion? - I dunno. a statement that defines a connection between two people. acquantances, friends, family, partners, even fuck buddies - all relationships

Can you date more than one person at a time? - others may choose to. me, I'm monogamous and will expect from the gf/bf the same as well

Can you have a relationship with more than one person at a time? - according to my definition, we all are

What constitutes cheating? - while I don't approve of looking at (or checking out) other people during a relationship, I suppose I still wouldn't consider it cheating. however, flirting, making out, starting another relationship at the same time - all no

Is cheating ever justifiable? - not really. I probably won't hate you forever, so long as you apoligize. but it might be harder to trust you

Would you get back with someone who cheated on you? - depends. see above

Would you expect to be taken back if you cheated on someone? - not at all

Kissing on the first date: Acceptable? - considering I kissed both Allison and Emma before the first date, I'd say so. not to mention, I kissed Chelsea before we even started dating

How about sex on the first date? - if you want to go home and masterbate to the wonderful memories I've given you that night, go right ahead. But abstinance for me (I think that's the first funny thing I've said this whole thing. what a shame)

One night stands? - HA (and no, that doesn't stand for Acid)

Sex outside of marriage in general: Acceptable or Not? - again, don't care about your past. but during the relationship, nope

Would you sleep with a gf/bf? - you haven't gotten this one yet, have you?

Would you sleep with just a friend? - no. that'd make things so awkward, because, as much as sex is utterly unrelated to love, people still put attachment to it (we have society to blame for that)

Would you kiss just a friend? - it wouldn't mean anything if I did, but no. I have not had problems with other friends kissing me, though (however, if you do it on the lips, I'm gonna have to wonder if you're coming on to me)

Would you do anything sexual at all with just a friend? - wasn't this asked before? well, if you consider making out sexual, then I guess yes, but that probably means I like them and want to go out with them (you'd think that'd be obvious)

What are your sexual boundaries? - nothing past first base

What do you consider a perfect first date? - I dunno. the date has to be there. but otherwise, we could do just about anything, I'd be fine. movie, walk. I still have yet to do that cook something together idea, so that'd probably be the next date I do with someone

What could your crush/bf/gf do to make you jealous? - heh, not much, probably. I actually get jealous really easily, but usually over small rediculous things. and I know they're rediculous. but yeah, just me

Guys: Would you always call her first? - eh. heh, any of my ex's can attest I don't make the first move often, unless I know by some means I can and things won't get weird or you won't mind it. but I generally suck at keeping up conversations, unless in person (and even then sometimes...), so better be ready to talk a lot. with Lindsay and jess, I'd just listen to them talk to themselves; I'm not at all hard to please, clearly. okay, maybe a bit

Girls: Would you get upset if he rarely/never called? - This and the last question are so sexist

What could a gf/bf do to make you feel insecure about your relationship? - avoid me, be unresponsive to stuff I do (like, I make a joke and you look like you weren't even paying attention; I do hope I'm not that boring). but I panik over little things too (granted, largely because my 1st to 5th gfs thought it wise, for whatever reason, to dance around anything rather than be straightforward with it. missed a date? break up's on the way)

Would you let your bf/gf be as free as they wanted to be? - what does that mean?

What would you do if you became/got your gf pregnant? - wouldn't ever happen

Relationships are 50/50: True or False? - absolutely

Once a cheater always a cheater: True or False? - naw

How do you know you like someone? - I dunno, you just know. generally you can't stop thinking about them, a lot. and you kinda jump when you hear their name (or think you do) or see them or their screen name comes up (sounds corny, but, hey, we really do live in the online age)

How do you know you LOVE someone? - geez...you just know, really. I mean, I only have one example, and I dunno. I just knew with her. with jess - I dunno. just knew

What is romantic love by your definition? - um...I dunno. romance. I dunno

Do you like people easily? - like? if crush qualifies, yes. if like as in long period of time, I'd say no, I guess. moderate there

Do you fall in love easily? - HA. I'm much too picky

How do you know your feelings are no longer there? - there's just nothing. you don't feel like seeing them, don't get excited anymore. it's a depressing point. stop making me think of it

What's the hardest part about a break up? - the other person's reactions. granted, the two times I've had to do it (heh, yes, I suck that much at dating), they were both kinda rediculous and the situations they were in just made me feel like an ass

Do you stop liking/fall out of love easily? - liking, as in crushes, yes. long term liking, not so much. depends on the person, really

Is there a difference between liking and crushing on someone? - yes. crush is kinda, "They might be interesting. I like the personality so far". Liking can consist of crushing but also you know them better and want to go out with them more strongly (or are just flat out interested in them)

How do you differenciate between liking and crushing? - see above

::CURRENTLY::
Like someone? - it's complicated

Crushing on someone? - not at the moment. there were some brief ones at the begining of the year

In love with someone? - not anymore. heh, feels so long ago

Dating around? - psh, I wish

Looking for someone? - it's fucking complicated

How relevant dating/relationships are to your life right now: ehh

And that took me an hour. Wow. D (okay, I just wanted to use it once more)

And now there's some idiot apologizing for not dating only Christians in his past, but he has a new heart now and will only date Christians (on Revelife, of course). I'm Christian and even I am offended (largely at the stunt in thinking he seems to have acquired).

So, I have found someone else to follow - Dr. Rick Carter. Not heard of Dr. Rick Carter? He's heard of you.

Dr. Rick Carter's activities consist of:
Lovemaking
Grooming his luxurious facial hair
Throwing knives
Juggling knives
Crafting knives
Killing people with his bare hands
Killing people with ranged weapons
Leaving sponges inside of people
Tearing things in half with his mustache
Long walks on the beach
Piña coladas
And getting caught in the rain

His interests entail a rousing game of chess, reading books, a nice glass of scotch by the fireplace, killing people - all the good things life has to offer

As you see, the doctor is, by default, amazing and should be known to all the world. http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=15698539956#/group.php?gid=15698539956

And math test today...