July 29, 2007

  • I'm hesitant. That shouldn't be a surprise. My college essay is in fact on that fact (though with a more pleasant ending than I think any incriment of time will grant me). I wonder why that still surprises me. I mean, David even told me that straight on. It shouldn't be surprising. Though I suppose its implications could cause it to be such. I always want to be certain before anything, in a world that refuses to yield certainty. If it's vague, I won't respond. If anything, I will recoil. Push me enough, I may respond, against all better judgement and probably shakily, but I shall. Push me hard enough, anything's possible. But I suppose that's ignoring the human and focusing on the goal. I'm hesitant, for many reasons. I deal with straight forwardness because in that you can never be wrong.